Friday, October 29, 2010

Alone

When I look around I see spoiled kids who get whatever they ask for, I see kids who take those things for granted, and don’t know the value of a dollar. Having few friends, not much money, and being in middle school don’t paint a pretty picture. Let me explain.


In elementary school being teased got old real fast. Same with having kids tell me they didn’t like me and hearing people talk behind my back. It was all the same every single year, like watching the same movie 4 times in a row.

Fifth and sixth grade were tolerable as if those two years were the calm before a new storm. Seventh grade was when I stumbled and started falling down a hill. Talking behind my back and hearing how people don’t like me was beginning to return. That year led me to how I feel now. Alone. I have one friend that I can talk to about anything, my dad’s unemployed, and all this stress from school. No, my house isn’t huge, I don’t have a fancy phone, or the best parents, but so what. Most people probably don’t even know that much about me. So what are they really judging me on.


My self confidence has always been low but it has now hit rock bottom. Home is just as stressful as school between my dad’s non-stop search for work and well, always being home. I can’t remember the last time I did something with a friend, was invited to a party, or just went out to do something fun. I wonder at this rate where am I going to be in a few years.


Anyway for now this is my life of loneliness and boredom. The one thing I still don’t understand though, is why me. I hope someday I just get a glimpse of how a lot of people live with all the luxuries they want. I hope things get better soon because I don’t know how much longer I can take it. The next time you go to laugh at someone think of how you could be impacting their life, because some things you do people just don’t forget.


22 comments:

  1. I love this! Most people don't like to think about the ugly things that happen within their pretty little towns, but you said them with emotion and hope.

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  2. Wow, you are a really brave person for telling a true story. Most people are writing about ficticious characters, your story made me stop and think. Middle school is notorious for being tough, especially girls (I have two teenage sisters). I hope things get better.

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  3. When i read this all i could think of was "WOW." Middle school is tough, especually if no one gives you a chance. Plus, there is so much real emotion that you begin to think about how others live and how hurtful you're words could be to them. I hope things begin to look up for you.

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  4. Just so everyone knows this is just based off my life. I exaggerated some stuff to make the story more interesting.

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  5. This was a really good story. I could sense the emotion when I read this. It made me stop reading a few times and relate it to my own life. I think that it is really brave of you to write about something that actually happened to you and I think that you are not the only one that feels this way.

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  6. i think this story is great and ALOT of people can probably relate to this. it seems as if everyone is judged without being known.

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  7. I love this and I wish more people would see it. People don't realize that sometimes their words or their actions affect people's life. I know that I can definitely relate to it and probably many others. Don't worry middle school is the worst for everyone. It is the time when you are just finding yoursel. Everything gets better from here.

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  8. This story is really amazing. No one would ever write about this but the way you wrote it really made me take more things for granted. This was a really good writing piece and i hope more kids can really get and take something from this.

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  9. I honestly think this should be submitted to a magazine or something because more people really need to see how little things can effect someones life so hugely like this. I honestly am going to think twice before talking about someone(just for the record, I`ve never talked bad about you) after reading this...

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  10. This story was great. It really made me relize how hard middle school could be for a lot of kids and they could get hurt emotionally from stress and complete agravation. This made me think twice about about life and just how lucky i am. Thank you.

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  11. This piece was fantastic. It was well worded and oh so true. As Matt said, thank you for such a wonderful piece of literature.

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  13. I just wanted to thank you guys for your comments. I wasn't expecting so many people to read this and understand. Things are getting better though and all your comments helped me.

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  14. i think this is a good story and its saying that you shouldent juge someone on what they have and you should juge someone on how they act and if there a good person.i dont think that people should make fun of others becuse you dont know what they have been thorw and they mite do something bad from always haveing a bad life and they never have fun and they thik its there fult on why no one likes them but relly the other kids are jugeing someone on what they have and thats not a ture friend.

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  15. This story was really well written and middle school was tough. All anyone could do was talk cause thats all we could do. I think a lot of people could relate to this because everyone got made fun of at some point or just talked rudely behind their backs.

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  16. Great job Kim! This was an amazing piece with A LOT of heart! I'm glad things are better because you are one of the nicest people I know! Like Caroline said, I can definitely relate to this and I'm sure many others can too! I envy you for being so brave andd putting this up on a blog. You are a very strong person Kim and don't you forget it! Awesome writing!

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  17. This was really good. It makes people stop and think about their lives and makes them realize that they are lucky they have such nice things while some people would be lucky to have one. It really shows how you feel about spoiled people.

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  18. I think it was good and its saying to be nice and to watch what u say to someone because u will regret it when ur older and the person u made fun of might get u back so be careful. And u don’t know how much it hurts from what u said the only person that will feel hurt and ashamed is the person u made fun of.

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  19. This story really can snap people back to reality and they realize that not all people have really nice things and no one should be made fun of because of that. People need to realize how much they hurt people when they tease others. It may be funny to them but to the other person its torture.

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  20. This was an eye opening story. It was really deep and one thing i got from it is some people should think twice before they insult or judge someone because on the outside a person might act fine and look fine but on the inside they might be hurting a lot a might be going through a lot that people might not understand. It was a really good piece, keep it up!

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  21. I love this and would not change a single thing about it. Your such a brave person for writing this story but I know that a lot of people feel the same exact way that you do and are going through some of the problems you mention in this story. A very eye opening story that reinforced the lesson about not judging a book by its cover and really getting to know someone before talking behind there back. Great job!

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  22. Kim this was excellent. I could connect to some of this, with all the rich people that surround me. I get mad because I am jealous of all the people that have everything they want. You are very strong to be putting this up for all of us to read and understand. This is so good!
    Briana Moniz

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