Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Forever In My Heart

As I waited in the office the walls seemed to be closing in on me. I looked over at my mother who looked as if she had just lost something dear to her heart. The doctor who had told us that the results would take a few weeks, called us this morning and asked us to come in. I could tell something was wrong by the way the doctor had looked at us when we walked in.

There was a slow, steady knock on the door. This was it. My hands started shaking. The doctor walked in with a sad, sorrow look on his face.

"Hello I have some news," the doctor sighed as if he were uncomfortable.

"What-what is it?" my mother asked, the color draining from her face.

"The results came back. You have third stage brain cancer. I am so very sorry. I'll leave you two alone." The doctor stomped out of the room.

I looked over to find my mother's jaw hitting the floor. I walked over to her, putting a comforting hand on her shoulder.

"I knew that I had to go sometime, but I never thought I would go this way," she whispered.

Tears started dripping down her cheeks. I wrapped my arms around her hoping it would help, but she pushed me away. She grabbed a tissue and wiped away the mournful tears. Then the doctor walked in.

"If it's alright with you I would like to speak to your mother in private for a few moments," the doctor told me, his hands fidgiting in his pockets.

I nodded. Together they both walked out of the room. I sat back down in my chair. I thought of a few months earlier when my father went off to war. I thought I would never see my mother act so depressed and weak like that again, until today.

What would I do without my mother? She is my best friend and I tell her everything. My thoughts were interupted by a faint scream coming from the other room. I jumped up and ran to where I thought I heard the scream.

There was my mother standing there weeping harder than I have ever seeen.

"What's going on?" I questioned, my eyes started to sting with tears.

"Mommy wants you to know that I love you with all my heart," she began, her words being seperated by long, deep sobs. "I will always and forever love you. You are the best daughter anyone can hope for. I love-"

"What's going on?" I interupted, surprising myself.

She sighed wiping her tears away.

"The doctor told me that the cancer is spreading very quickly. Soon it will have spread throughout my body."

"What does that mean?"

"It means that..." she began,"it means that I don't have a lot of time left. I only have a few weeks."

This made me feel faint. I felt my back hit the wall behind me. My hands felt clammy. I looked my mother in the eyes, tears sliding down my cheeks like a waterfall. I ran and gave her a hug.

"I love you too. You are the greatest mom in the world!" I wheeped.

Although it has been over a year since her passing, the thought still stings whenever I think about it. As I stand here at her grave I realize that I have not lost a mother, but a friend who was always there and someone I will miss dearly. I love you mom and you will forever be in my heart.

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