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Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Skiing
staring at skiers below.
I start pushing off my poles,
and down the slope I am flying.
Zig- zagging on the fresh powder,
being careful not to fall.
The sharp, whistling wind is punishing my face,
and my finger tips are becoming numb as I am gripping my ski poles.
My thighs start burning at first, like the hot embers from last night's fire,
but quickly building to a raging inferno.
I bounce between the moguls,
with my knees bent.
It seems ad though they are growing in front of me.
Half way down the run now,
the mountain seems like it is going to win.
I am fighting to hold back my fear,
and I am trying not to panic.
I start singing a song to help calm my nerves,
not caring who hears.
I am catching up with my friends,
passing them and spraying them with snow as I roar by.
A few more feet to go,
the slope is flattening out.
I am done.
I am skiing back into the line for the lift,
excited to go again.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Mr. Smith's Umbrella
with just the right amount of white,
comes the rain
to pause the pain
and bring upon the light.
But there he sits,
all the same.
His park bench in the rain.
And here I sit,
all the same.
Beside my windowpane.
I tap the glass once,
perhaps he will look up.
But one tap will not do,
he remains a statue.
My hand knocks twice.
And his response?
Bleached, wrinkled face,
nothing to replace
the hallow of his eyes.
Three times to tremble the glass
is what it takes to see
that there is also me.
But there is no smile,
there is no wave,
no glance of his eye.
Just a shiver running through,
and what else should I do?
so i rap tap tap tap.
Four
to be sure.
And now his brittle bone
shutter like stone.
"Wake Mr. Smith!
Open your eye!
See there is life
that is still left to die."
I pound to the fifth.
But whats left of this
is a quivering man
who's left to stand
and walk away in the rain
from my windowpane.
Grey as day can be,
with just the right amount of white,
comes the man with the umbrella
who prefers blindness over sight.
Monday, November 22, 2010
It's about catching that ball that can't be caught.
It's about hitting that ball that no one else can hit.
It's about the bruises and injuries that leave permanent marks on your skin.
It's about those bad calls by the umpire that we just can't control.
It's about getting those big dirt stains on your pants that never wash out.
It's about making mistakes that you know you won't make again.
It's about your team that soon becomes like your family.
It's playing the game you love.
Friday, November 19, 2010
Horvath's Huvercraft (a true story...mostly)
Now i must tell you, in the past i have been known to posses the talent of sometimes dreaming events that have already, or intend, to happen. This dream, however, was a bit different.
It was the end of the day in homeroom and our well known language arts teacher, Mr.Horvath, came up to me and asked if I needed help with my book review. Now, as you know i was worried I would not be able to improve this piece, so I agreed to this. Surprisingly though, instead of taking the paper from my hand he turned to the window, opened it all the way, and pushed out the screen to let the chill of November slip in. He then took a set of keys from his pocket and stepped out the window.
I am aware that a normal human being would plunge to his death at this point, but, Horvath being very unordinary, seemed to be walking on air. I was then astonished to find that he clicked a button that seemed to be for his car, and opposed to hearing the beep of doors unlocking I witnessed a large floating object appear. Yes, you guessed it, a hovercraft.
When awaking from this dream the memory flooded back to me and this is were my ultimate realization hit me. Horvath is not human. What? Do you suppose me crazy? Well think what you want but it all makes perfect sense. There is an invisible hovercraft siting afloat right outside his window and don't try and tell me different. I know what I'm saying is true, for what kind of human being can have such superior knowledge, be so astoundingly humble? The answer is none, for Horvath is not human but something completely unique.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Murtha
Suddenly, something grasps my throat. I cannot breathe. I jolt upward thrashing and gasping for air. Then, my breath returns. Everything is normal.
It is mid-fall and the air is crisp. I sit in math class thinking about the night before. It must have been a dream because that’s always how the movies end. “Bethany?” Mrs. Williams says while tapping a pen on my desk. “Yes?” I answer. “This is the last time I’m going to remind you to pay attention in class. The next time it will be a detention,” she says sternly. She goes back to teaching and I go right back to daydreaming.
I jump as the bell rings signaling the end of the day. I throw my books in my bag and bolt to my bus. I quickly finish my homework with time to spare. Then the bus jerks to a stop and I drag my feet through my yard to my old victorian house. “Hey mom, I say, giving her a hug. “Hi Honey, how was school?” she asks. “Good,” I call down flatly as I run upstairs and survey my small room. Nothing unusual, I hope I am imagining what happened last night.
A few hours pass slowly and I have a late dinner with my mom. She divorced a few years back. I haven’t spoken to or about my dad since. My mom really hates talking about it.
It is late and we finally finished dinner, so I slowly trudge upstairs to get ready for bed. It is Friday and I can stay up, but I don’t particularly feel like it. I brush my teeth, pull down my covers, and hop into bed. My mom pops in and kisses me goodnight. “Do you feel OK?” she asked. “Yeah, I’m just tired,” I reply adding in a fake yawn. Hoping for some protection, I snuggled into my warm blankets. I lie there awake for many hours thinking. When I finally drift to sleep, I am awakened for a second time. This time it is in a different way though.
“Bethany!” said a deep, grumbling voice. “Bethany” it repeats. Then I hear a high pitched scream and nails scraping my wall. Sitting straight up in bed with the covers close to my chin, I franticly look around the room, and tense up. My pupils dilate to adjust to the dark room. “Who are you?” I quiver. I lick my lips, scrunch up my face, and wait. No reply.
The next day things are even stranger. My mom is acting weird and all of a sudden we have a dog. “A dog?” I question my mom. “Yes, sweetie, he showed up at the door this morning and seems to be a stray,” she said.
I shove a piece of toast with some butter on my plate. Then I watch TV for an hour or so, get dressed, and brush my teeth. Just to get away for a while I scramble outside, run down my backyard, and venture into the woods. There is a path but I never really follow it. The leaves
crunch under my feet with every step. The sky is blue with big, white, puffy clouds. The warmth of the sun hits my skin as I walk. Traveling farther into the woods, I look up, and notice the warm sun is fading quickly.
After a while of walking I decide to turn back. I have never been this far out before. The sky darkens again and raindrops start splattering the ground. I start running. The rain falls harder and my feet beet the ground faster. I start gasping for air, clutch my throat, and feel my body hit the ground. The clutch on my throat recedes. I’m now face to face with a headstone. Moss droops over the gray, dull, porous surface. I look around and realized I am in an open grave. The earth under me is damp and soft. The body is gone. The ancient headstone reads...
Murtha Garner
1716-1798
R.I.P.
Not sure what to think I get up and start sprinting, but I only get a few feet when my body is frozen. An invisible force is holding me in place. Straining my arms and legs I try to fight it without prevail. Letters scrawl out in front of me in scraggily writing.
“Long ago my body was taken from me.
I cannot rest peacefully until I get it back.
Beneath your room my corpse lies.
When you find it, bury it in the open grave.
But beware, if you break any part of my brittle bones,
I will never be able to go to eternal rest.
I fly forward; I’m free. Scared and panting, I realize this is reality not some stupid nightmare. My adrenalin kicks in and I dash home faster than ever. I grab the crowbar from my shed, slow my breath, and look around. My mom and the dog are nowhere in sight. I shuffle up to my room, squat down on my hands and knees, and fit the crowbar between a gap in the floor. I’m shaking uncontrollably, fumbling with the tool, and asking myself...”Should I do it?”
million dollar walls
Lurks the wayward notion
Of glory and fame
But most of all
To see my art
On those million dollar walls
Then reality comes to give me a kick
And i settle into these cruel facts
Monday, November 15, 2010
Plastic Zombie
And now i ask myself, is this actually bad? To be a living zombie, plastic and fake, but to not know? You think your happy, no matter if your trying to be part of a crowed or deliberately trying not to be, this is what you have been striving for and made it!
Only you haven't made it, you just think they do.
You may be living an ignorant bliss in the dark, forgetting that this isn't what you like only what you want , or you may be sadly standing alone in the chill of truth, but i find it is simplest to live in between. Accept what it is that you are, because you are not individual for individuality is not unique, and you are not a perfect rounded shape, you are only what you allow yourself to be , not what you want yourself to be. In this way i think you give yourself the most amount of space to just be.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
My Game...
"Alright, whatever," Jack mumbled as he ambled up to his room. He did what he normally did every Friday evening, go up to bed, wait for his Father to go to bed, then secretly flipped on the television and turn the volume down so low, he had to lean in to hear it, just incase dad decides to get a "Midnight-Snack". However, tonight was different. Tonight Jack was exhausted. So, he shut off the T.V. and closed his eyes.
"Is he awake? "
"I don't think so, not yet."
"Should we wake him up?"
"No, shhh, I think he's waking up"
A couple moments later Jack slowly creaked open his eyes and saw a blur of what looked like two egg-headed idiots, but as the blur cleared he could easily see two sickly green men with wrinkly, leathery skin, four black buldging eyes and long mouths with excited grins on their faces.
"He's awake."
"I know."
Jack screamed and tried to get off the strange, jell-O feeling bench, but his arms and legs were strapped down with the strange material. He looked up and saw a bright white light, and next to it the two men with what looked like a large drill with a green laser, aiming right between his eyes. Jack couldn't believe it was over, goodbye life, Dad, school, and the new Call of Duty: Black Ops video game that was coming out the next day. No, I must get Black Ops. There is no way these stupid aliens can take away something that valuable to me! Jack broke out the strange chains with so much effort, his body was shaking.
"No, I Must Get Black Ops!" Screamed Jack with rage as he tried to find a way out of the room.
"Jack, wake up, Jack, hello?" said one of the aliens.
And with that Jack opened his eyes from his horrible nightmare and leaped out of bed, relieved that it was all a dream, and more importantly, it was the release date of Call of Duty: Black Ops.
"Come on Jack, get dressed, were going to Gamestop" said his Father, grinning as he started to pull and rip at his own face until revealing he was another one of those ugly aliens.
Jack screamed in horror and realized what the aliens wanted, Call of Duty: Black Ops.
My pupppy
Hannahmup,
I miss you so much it’s insane.
Everyday I walk up the driveway & to the stairs to the deck;
I would see your garden & rememeber that day we put you down.
It was probably the worst day ever.
Every time Dad teaches Marlow a new trick & one that you did perfect;
I would start to tear.
I miss having a dog,
that would sleep by my side at night.
I can’t believe it has almost been 3 months.
I miss you & I can’t
get a dog better then you.
R.I.P.
& I love you
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Sing
It is a hard fact that perfect did not always equal beautiful. Sometimes beauty is in the imperfections, the little mishaps. People think that they have beauty down to a math, where they can calculate the perfect dimensions of a face, and those dimensions would make it beautiful. Perfect is fitting the exact need for the purpose, but beauty will serve better than perfect will.
I lived in a "perfect" world. no one wanted for anything, no one needed anything, no one had to worry. Everyone had all they needed, and never felt the need to reach for more. No one was selfish or stole, because what could you covet when you had everything you would ever need?
I wasn't happy with this. I wanted something to aspire to. I wanted to know I could make myself great.
My dream came in a little package, wrapped with a big, burgundy bow. It sat patiently on the porch, like a dog waiting to be let in. I plopped it on our perfect mahogany table and with a quick snap of my wrist, undid the perfect bow. The tidy rose wrapping rested on the table. I cut the box apart and inside was only a single envelope. The elegant envelope was a easy champagne color with accents of blush. The movement to sever the ribbon at the back of envelope was like the crack of a dry, dry twig, long dead and only held together by the deathly organisms eating it. I pulled out the refined and cultured looking letter and began to read.
my heart stopped at that moment, and wouldn't start again until my revolution began.
She didn’t exactly like what she saw. Too bad she couldn’t do anything about it.
Carla went downstairs to see her mom at the front door in her coat. “Come on, let’s get this over with”, Carla said relentlessly. Her mom frowned. “I’m counting on you Carla, to take care of your grandmother.” said Carla’s mom. “Yeah. Sure. Whatever,” Carla replied sourly. “Don’t be fresh.” That was probably her mom’s favorite saying. Carla ran outside to the forest green Hummer that was parked awkwardly in the rock driveway. Carla jumped into the passenger seat. When what seemed like forever, Carla’s mom finally climbed into the car. She slowly put the key into the ignition and started the car. She drove to the airport.
“Come here sweetie! Give grandma a hug. I’ve been counting the minutes until you got here.” Carla’s ancient grandmother gushed. “Hey grandma.” she replied half-heartedly. “Come, come. How was the flight?” She asked. Carla’s grandma was sort of a jabber mouth. “Well, I realize you haven’t been here for a while so I’ll give you a tour.” she said slowly. “O.K.” Carla’s grandma gave her a very boring tour and then, she made Carla get into a bathing suit and try the crystal clear window of water outside her door. The water was warm and pretty. When Carla was as wrinkled as a prune, she decided to head back inside when she saw a couple walking on the beach. But it wasn’t your usual couple. They were both about 16, Carla’s age, but the girl was wearing high heels and a suit, (not usual beach attire.) And the man was wearing a black suit, dress shoes, a white shirt, a red tie, his hair slicked back and a Bluetooth on his right ear. Carla guess they could be coming home from work, but there are two things wrong with that. One, they should have gone home to change before coming to the beach and two, they are definitely not 70 or older.
The next day Carla was back on the beach and so was the couple. Carla get up enough nerve to go over and talk to them. “Hi” she said politely. “Hello” they said simultaneously in a robotic tone. “Are you a new addition to this beautiful island?” they asked. “Ummmm, sort of…” Carla replied to the weird question. “What do you mean sort of?” the woman asked. “Well I come here sometimes but I live in San Francisco.” Carla answered. “What is San Francisco?” Ok, something must be wrong with these people. They must be living under a rock. Carla doesn’t reply because she am thinks it might be a joke. Carla changes the subject. “So what are your names?” she asks awkwardly. But before they could answer, there was a flash of light and all I could see was black.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
It Rises and It Kills
I sat there at age 13 making my first big impact, a good one at that. It affected those around me, the ones I hold so dear. Mine and my fathers. I took his neatly wrapped death and placed it in the garbage. I talk, for lots of reasons, to save him and save our future. You could say ‘Mind set on the path ahead’. This was one of my many attempts to save our future; his future and mine.
We sat in the kitchen and I talked for minutes, then hours. His tricky lawyer talk and new change of subject wouldn’t get him out of this one, not this time. This was not going to be another try fail experiment of his; this was going to be it. He had turned 50 and enough was enough, he wasn’t the young foolish kid he once was. He knew the harm and the risks and I was done. This was my last try and I feared even quitting now wouldn’t save him.
“It’s me or the cigarettes, I can’t look at you, I can’t talk to you knowing that your lungs could crumble at any second” It’s all I could manage for right now.
I know those words still echo through him as he lies on the hospital bed, not including “I told you so”. No treatment worked and as the cancer spread from his lungs to his heart the doctor’s estimate of 2 weeks seemed to soak into me like a sponge. The wedding isle in that white church would never feel our shaking feet pounding against it. My little girl’s cries would never feel his thick warm arms to settle the pain. Christmas morning would never hear the moans we all exchanged as he made us wait to see our presents. Life from now would be a gaping hole; nothing would fill this void in me.
As he woke up from his 2nd nap of the day I hoped for him to talk, that for some reason today he would be able to speak and I wouldn’t have to face the fact that I have no remembrance of our last conversation we ever had. Maybe there was still a little fight left in this golfer, maybe this skinny and fragile 62 year old could spend one day with me. He could provide me with something a little more special then our nightly arguments in the kitchen or on the car ride to school, something more than the silent treatment that had filled my years at young 13. But that did not happen and I was forced to sit there speechless next to him, holding his hand as he thought about the mistakes he made in his past. Maybe regretting them or maybe even blaming me that I gave up on him a month after he turned 50. Either way he was leaving me and my ultimatum suddenly became clear to me, he had chosen the nicotine filled cigarettes. I guess they had always won all along. The thing that rises and kills had just become the champion as the monitors flickered in the gloomy hospital room.
A week or so after the nurses had rushed in I could be found at a cemetery wanting to hold my father’s hand. Wanting to crawl inside my 4 year old body and run into his welcoming leg as he jokingly tried to pull me off. I wanted to take off the black dress and change into my USC football gear and watch the game with him. I wanted to dance with him in the kitchen to the Christmas music coming from the family room. I wanted to be anywhere but the place I was now. I wanted to be with my dad and I wanted that to last forever. The only wish I’d ask for for the rest of my life, that the thing that rises and kills would have never won.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
The ocean
Imagination
A numbing sensation overwhelms my limbs. And I’m no longer in the wonderful heaven just moments ago. Tears sting my eyes as a sob, “Because you love me.” Immediately the beating stops as he bends his creaky knees to look me in the eyes. I twitch as his warm hand presses against my icy chin to reposition my face to look at him. “And?” he asks patiently. The thumping in my chest increases dramatically as I realize that this game doesn’t end until the stronger one wins. This person thinks he has me like another one of his pawns. Defenseless, naive, and dumb, but he’s never played with me before. While taking a slow deep breath, “And I,” I answer, “I hate you.”
…
“Soft kitty warm kitty little ball of fur, happy kitty sleepy kitty purr, purr, purr,” I softly sing myself to sleep. No nightmare can ever be as bad as this messed up reality. No darkness can be as dark as it is now. My voice becomes raspy and desert dry as I try to dose off, try to forget the aching emptiness that my stomach holds, and I try to forget that once I had a heart where now, a void sits engulfing any emotions I have left. All through the night I continue to sing, “Soft Kitty,” while gazing at the flurries of color that seem to pass in my eye. Color is the last bit of reality I still hold, and even that seems to be fading quickly, into darkness, toward my enemy. My gray, thunder cloud eyes begin to droop slowing into a trace of dreams.
Thunder claps immediately as the sky splits down with the electric light. Rain pours down my drenched shirt as I run for dear life. Everything is my tormentor, I think; I’m never safe, never. Everything is a viscous weapon bent on destroying me, all except my kidnapper. He stands there watching as my imagination destroys me, defeats me, becomes me. Leaves morph into deadly sharpened butcher knives hanging precariously overhead as the terrifying creatures chase me to finally face it, my worst fear. It’s right in front of me, yet unfocused due to the mass destruction surrounding me. And as if reading my damaged mind he states, “Because it’s dark, it shall come for you.”
Hyperventilating I take I triple, no quadruple check that I’m alive and, well… just alive. Bitter tears race across my bruised face as the ancient door opens once again. Slightly shaking I close my eyes and block him out, out of sight out of mind right? Unfortunately, I was wrong. He crouches lower to whisper into my ear, “You know you’re sexy when you’re scared.” He inches closer toward my cracked lips and plants his puffy, healthy lips roughly on mine. It must be Friday; he always plays his games on Fridays. As always, I let him use me, because if I don’t, I will be refused the liquid and the slimy fish-like mush for multiple days. Long fat finger glide down my neck toward my… if I don’t look it would have never happened I remind myself. While rounding my hips he becomes more forceful, expecting me to play along now. My ice hands reach his belt, stretching around his waist to inspect every last aspect of him. What’s this?
...
My gray eyes spring open; I’m seven again, rushing hastily downstairs to discover the Christmas surprises awaiting me from the beloved Santa. I’m twelve kissing the poster of Leonardo DiCaprio hanging on the wall. I’m two trying to sneak a cookie on top of the cabinet. I’m thirteen weeping on my bed because my boyfriend dumped me in a text. I’m nine climbing to the tippy top of the Oak tree in my backyard, and succeed. I was so naïve, so innocent and unaware of the evils in the world. Gracefully I wield the metal object in my shaky hands now, barely able to swipe it. “Goodbye,” I whisper, switching the weapon point toward me and I don’t hesitant when I pull the trigger.
…
Falling, falling, toward the sky; no more in the mercy… of my imagination.
The Calling
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Thank You Red Bouncy Ball
The brightness of the sun awoke me. My eyes glued shut and wouldn't open. Finally they recieved the sight of an old, wooden room that wasn't mine. My thoughts were confused. Where was I? How'd I get here? Hello? I elevated my hand to run my fingers through my hair when i noticed the color of my skin had changed. It was tranparent. Not a thing blocked my view when my hand was raised infront of my eyes. This couldn't be. Then, right as I looked to the left of me I saw a body. A body of an 9 year old girl. A body who's chest had taken a bullet. A body who had 2 tiny, little blonde pigtails. That body was mine. I was dead.
Think Before You Kill
Julio returned to his sketchy, forty dollar hotel room to find Branimir, his partner, sitting in the nauseating reclining chair in the corner looking disappointed and impatient. Branimir Ottoman was a tall, broad shouldered, deep voiced Bulgarian, who was quite the opposite of Julio. He was loyal, and although physically strong, he was mentally weak.
“Well?” asked Branimir in his deep, monotone voice.
“Well what?” replied Julio with a bit of an attitude.
“Did you do it?” asked Branimir.
“What do you think? Of course I did. Why wouldn’t I?”
“I just thought that after I told you the consequences you might change your mind.”
“Listen to me. No one will ever make me change my mind. Never, about anything or anything.”, Julio said, changing his tone from annoyed to angry. He smiled and shook his head and muttered, “You know, your inferiority complex is fully justified.” Branimir lowered his eyebrows and tilted his head in confusion, as he didn’t have the keenest of minds.
Later that night, while Julio went out for a walk, Roberto called.
“Hello?” asked Branimir.
“It is Roberto. Listen, I heard about Julio’s mental lapse. I’m not just going to ignore it and turn the other cheek. I want you to kill him. His head is getting to big. He is starting to rebel.”
“He is my partner. I can’t just…”
“Shut up!” interrupted Roberto. “Did I ask you to debate? No. I asked you to blow his head off. So do it, or else.” He hung up.
Branimir normally did what he was told, without any questions, but this time he did exactly what the boss told him not to do. He debated. Julio was his partner. They had been through it together, through thick and thin, as they say. He couldn’t kill him, no matter how big of a bonehead he was. However, he couldn’t disobey the boss. If you disobey the boss, you are a dead man walking. Now he had a headache. He hated thinking. This situation brought up something in Branimir’s head. He now realized he didn’t want to be a hit man anymore. He wanted to have a wife, kids, and a normal, everyday job. What was he doing with his life? Killing people for money is a job for terrible people. Was he a terrible person? No, he knew that and everyone else knew that. He was a good person. This job was tearing him apart. He punched at the wall in frustration. Again, he threw his fist at the wall. And again. And again. After the fourth punch he realized that punching, crying, and complaining wouldn’t fix anything. He would have to resign. He was positive that Julio would understand.
Julio returned later that night to, once again, find Branimir sitting in that putrid chair. He had his gun in hand, but it wasn’t pointed toward him. It was lying on his lap, looking harmless.
“What are you still doing up?” asked Julio.
“I have business to attend to.”
“What business?”
“My own.” replied Branimir in an attitude. “I need to resign.”
“Listen, nobody retires. You never leave this business, never.” screamed Julio. “You know too much. How am I supposed know that you aren’t going to leave us, snitch on us to the police, and laugh at us as they are walking us to jail.”
“You will just have to trust me.”
“No, that is the first rule of this job, Trust nobody. I’m sorry Branimir.” Julio pulled out his gun and put his bullet through his partner’s aorta, to be sure to kill him. His blood poured out of his artery like water out of an elephant’s trunk. He packed up the dead body in a luggage cart and put a tomato sauce can near the blood. He hurried to pack up when he spotted a note out of the corner of his eye. It read:
I’m sorry, but I couldn’t admit it to you. I felt too ashamed to say it out loud. The reason I left and quit is because Roberto wanted me to kill you. You were my best friend and I couldn’t take it. Hopefully you will understand.
From,
Branimir
Guilt rushed upon him. It felt as if someone just hit him in the stomach with a baseball bat. He grabbed his gun and pointed it to his temple. He got ready to fire, but he couldn’t pull it.
Looking back on that day he still wishes he pulled that trigger. The saying, better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all, was false. It stank to have lost his friend that understood him like Branimir. He grabbed his gun and, this time, he pulled the trigger.
An End
Remember When?
♥♥♥
Seasons
Saccharin Saturated Air
I fairly enjoy breathing. I do not enjoy people breathing near me. I do not enjoy people near me at all. Or small rooms. I especially do not enjoy people breathing, near me, in a small room. This is sometimes a problem. Like right now.
My partner insists on sitting in the bean bag chairs in the corner of the room despite the lack of air flow and heat radiating off the black corduroy material. She leans forward, “Soooo,” she begins. I imagine a million O’s all lined up as she continues to draw it out, when I’m hit with the patch of sickening moisture that is her breathe. It rolls across my face and hangs in the air in front of me carrying the stench of her gum. It’s bubble-gum flavored, consisting of sugar and nothing else. She continues talking, stopping once in a while to get a few obnoxious chews in, completely unaware of the saccharin saturated gusts of air she is blowing at me.
The fan’s hum mocks me in the background, a constant reminder that moving air is just a few yard away, and fresh air is just beyond the wall I’m leaning against. She looks at me expectantly. She must have asked something. The silence was too long. She feels awkward and I quickly hand her the sheet I had filled out and mutter something about her looking over it or comparing our answers. She starts to scan it, obviously having trouble deciphering my messy handwriting, but I don’t offer help. I lean up against the wall again with my eyes closed. I take in deep breathes of the air that lacks her gum particles before she talks again. I imagine I’m already on the other side of the wall, taking in air even better than this. I actually find comfort in the soft bean bag material I detested a few minutes ago.
Suddenly, there is a loud continuous screech. My eyes snap open, and I jump in my seat. The calm in the classroom is immediately broken and kids start chattering and get up from their seats all around the room. The teacher rambles off blunt commands. “Quiet down! Get into a line! You’ve all done this before it’s not that hard!” I quickly register what is happening. This is a fire drill. We are going outside. We are getting fresh air. My prayers are answered.
I swiftly rise from my spot surprised to realize I am annoyed at having to move from my comfortable chair, yet the promise of real oxygen motivates me. I join in the middle of the single file line that reminds me of elementary school. I like the order almost as much as the destination. I almost don’t even mind Suzy, and her hot breathe which is now on the back of my neck.
Because of my peer’s inability to grasp the concept of an organized system, the line we are in is quickly forgotten and I am thrust into a madhouse of bodies stumbling over one another like a stampede.
I can hear people’s laughter; my mind warping it into the jeering cackles of a clown’s. The ceiling felt so close to my head. The walls seem so close, closing in on me, creating a narrow aisle barely wide enough to get, getting narrower now, as I walk on. I am being squeezed into a funnel, pulled towards the exit by gravity. My only obstacle: my classmates.
I can feel the carbon dioxide closing in on me. My lungs shrinking. My muscles tightening. My nails digging deep into my palms. There is almost no air left. I concentrate on taking big gasps, consuming every drop of oxygen. The other students are pushing me from all sides. Getting in the way of my air. I can feel my pace quicken, myself speeding to the door, pushing them out of the way with determination. Running and running and running. But the door is running twice as fast. I can’t catch up. I am wasting air. There isn’t enough time.
I feel my legs go rubbery and my head light, like I am on a trampoline. Then black. Calm. Silence. Soft corduroy against my skin. Like I closed my eyes real tight, but instead of seeing white splotches of light. all I can see is the black spaces in between them. I concentrate on all the space. My mind wanders the black abyss.
the WAR of a life-time
many were killed, and their blood was spilled.
as thick as syrup it hustled down the hill we call life, they had naught to lose.
their uniform was a red shirt with black-as-night pants and blue steel-toed shoes.
this country was nicknamed the big melting pot,
America, known for its fabled dreams.
the war is raging battles everywhere there are coming to an end.
The war of day is over and its off to the period of night.
the moon is out, the stout problems of day melt away in to the comfort of your home.
those who make it are felicitous that their wagers came out to be for the best.
it's off to sleep see you at day.
Lost
By,
Jumped
Language Arts Period 2
September 29, 2010
Essay
Jumped
What, where am I? Who are you? Why am I here? There was an answer, but I wasn’t so sure what the exact answer was. I heard something like you got jumped. Now all I could hear was beeping and people yelling at each other. Then it was gone.
12 Hours before- I was walking around New York City. I was out to find a grocery store with a good selection of milk so I could have my cereal. My family and I had just moved from Connecticut into an apartment building because my dad had gotten a new job here in the city. It was a about 4:00 pm on Saturday afternoon. It was pretty chilly since it was December 20th and there were a lot of tourist in the city since the tree was up. Also it is close to Christmas. I was getting really cold so I started to gallop like a horse down 22nd street toward the grocery store ACME. This wasn’t like the biggest store in the U.S, but it did the job for the local area. I went in and went to the refrigerated section to grab the milk then leave, but when I went to pay the milk pounced off the counter but I caught it before it hit the ground. I was a cat catching its prey.
After getting the milk I walked out of the store and saw these two suspicious and stupid looking older teenagers standing there talking to each other while staring at me. So I started to walk and not think about them. I walked toward 23rd street which ends up connecting with 25th street where my apartment is located. I saw the 2 boys move so I started to book down 23rd street when I stopped. I didn’t stop myself it was the boys. I asked, “What do you want?” “I don’t have anything, just leave me alone” I said. “We just wanted to play with you a little bit.” POW!! I felt a rush of pain go to my face.” Slicc, that was the last thing I felt was the knife that went into both of my legs. It hurt so much that it was hell.
What, where am I? Who are you? Why am I here? There was an answer but I didn’t hear it very clearly, but what I did hear is that I got jumped. After I heard that there was a bunch of beeping and yelling. Then 30 seconds later it was gone.
I woke up to bright lights. I was very dizzy and my legs were killing me. The room was filled with my whole family which would be my Mom, Dad and my sister Sarah. They were all crowded around me. After about 4 to 5 more hours of sleep I got up and went home. My mom told me, “Next time you go with dad understand”. “Yes mom” I said.
I Am King
The king stands up, removing his cloak and revealing a sword only a king would be worthy to hold. I stood there amazed and wondering where he could have gotten that from. He takes it out of his sheath and it hisses, almost like it was mocking me to attack.
I take out my own, worthless sword, dull as a slither of grass. I charge forward and scream at the king, challenging him to a game of life or death.
He stands up, accepting my challenge and casually starts walking toward me, while at the same time looking like a killer.
Our swords meet and I hear a clang as they clash. Then another as our swords meat for a second time. I dodge the third attack and thrust my dull sword toward his royal body. Weapon meats flesh and the king fall’s to the ground and screams out in pain. I ignore the pitiful cries for help and slide the sword out of him. I then victoriously finish him with one more thrust toward his heart. It lands with a sickening crunch and I know I have won.
I pick up the crown by the now dead body and place it on my head. It seems a little too big, but I figure I’ll grow into it eventually. I strut out the door of the castle with a cheerful smirk on my face. I have won, I am king.
Grand Slam
Crack! I was taking my warm-up swings and I was on fire tonight. I am starting in left field and batting 3rd. We were throwing our best pitcher TJ Lanza. It was just about game time. Play Ball! Yelled the umpire. We have four umpires for the semi-final game. We were the home team. So we were in the field first and it was a quick three strikeouts to start the game. TJ had his best stuff.
There were two outs and I stepped up to bat. I struck out on three straight fast balls. The next inning had gotten worse. I made two errors in the field. Now I was really mad. I didn’t bat again until the bottom of the fourth. That didn’t matter though because I struck out again. I was mad and sad on my way back to the dugout. I slammed my helmet on the ground, and part of it cracked.
I walked out to the field for the start of the fifth. We were losing 6-0. I knew I had to do something but didn’t know what. That didn’t help because I made three more errors. I am just sad that I’m playing terribly and I am not helping my team. My Coach pulled me aside and said keep your head up kid. So I stepped to the plate, we were catching up to them. It was 6-4 we were still losing though. The bases were loaded and I was ready to do something good for my team. I cranked a double off the fence on the first pitch thrown. I brought in three runs and gave my team the lead. I would score that inning as well. I was so excited I finally did something good. I smiled and sprinted out onto the field to start the sixth inning.
Though the top of the sixth didn’t turn out well, we went into the inning winning 8-6. After the long inning was over it was 10-8 and the bottom of the sixth was our final chance to win. The first two batters struck out. Then the next two got on. Our number two batter was up and he walked on four pitches. Now the bases are loaded two outs bottom of the last inning. I stepped into the box. I was so nervous I was shaking. The first pitch was a ball. So they called in a new pitcher and he was better than the first pitcher. It was Jordan Vazano. He threw as hard as a bullet fired out of a gun. My coach said to me, go up there and try your best. The next pitch was straight heat for a strike. Then a ball followed. The count was in my favor 2-1. The next pitch was well over my head. I thought it was ball three. It wasn`t though. The umpire called it for strike two. I was so mad at that call. My coach was too. My coach got into the umps face and started yelling at him. That wasn’t too smart because my coach got ejected from the game and the one after that. Now I was really mad and I had to do something. So the next pitch was right down the middle and I took the biggest and hardest swing I ever took. DING! The ball jumped off of my bat. It went soaring into the streets for a walk-off grand slam! I was so happy I was jumping up and down as I rounded the bases. I couldn’t stop smiling. My teammates crowded home plate. They jumped on me and hugged me. We had won and I made it happen. The final score was 12-10.
I was so happy after the game I was speechless. I couldn’t stop smiling. My mom made the best dinner that night for the big win. I was ecstatic. My team lost in the championship to Team Mattingly 10-0. Now I will always remember my first home run.
The Swap
“Alright guys. I know I got it. The five dollar muffin is mine,” I said so everyone could hear me. Most heard me but paid no attention. They simply went back to their turkey and artichokes. I ripped apart my muffin clearly revealing the tin foil. I slowly pealed the tin foil open and unraveled the folded piece of money. It wasn’t the five dollar bill, but it wasn’t a single either. I clearly had a one next to two zeroes. One hundred dollars never looked so good. I turned in my seat to face Uncle Scott sitting next to me. “Hey Uncle Scott,” I said. “I think I got the winning muffin.” I moved the bill into his view and the look on his face could never be duplicated.
“I think you should show that to Aunt Lorie,” he replied still not quite understanding what happened. Aunt Laurie makes the magical money muffins every year.
“Hey Aunt Laurie,” I said across the table. “I think I won.” She slowly peered up not expecting anything spectacular. Her expression was even more surprised than Uncle Scott’s.
“Oh my goodness,” she said. “I can’t believe I did that.” Everyone looked my way and one by one realized what I was holding. “Alright, alright,” she added. “I’m going to need that back.
I looked at her confused like I had no idea what she meant. “Keep it Ted! Keep it!” everyone was yelling at me. “Finders keepers, losers weepers!”
“Come on Ted. It was just a little mistake. I really need that back,” she told me looking more and more nervous as if she just lost her life savings.
“OK,” I said. “Before this gets out of hand, this is just a prank I decided to pull. It’s my mom’s money. I’ve been planning this for awhile.” The relief rushed to her face like a dam bursting.
“Really?” she asked still with some nervousness. “This is such a relief because Ryan just paid me back and I put it on the counter right near the muffins. I really thought it was mine.”
“Wow,” I said. “That was good timing.” I opened the original piece of tin foil and found non other the wonderful five dollar bill. “I actually got the five guys,” I said. “Can you believe it?”
“Why should we?” Sam said with a sarcastic smile on his face.
After it was all over, we ate our dinner without any further interruptions. However right before Aunt Laurie kissed me good-bye she said, “You this means I have to get you back right?” The smile slowly crawled off my face.
Cheerleading
If your flexible you could be a flyer, and be like 7 feet in the air, standing tall above the other people. Likeyour on top of the wirld. Or soaring through the sky, when you come down. also if you are stronglike me, you can be a baseor a backspot and lift the flyer up in the air.
They good thing is that there is alot of different parts to one rountine, so if your good at dancing you can be exllecent at the dance part. Also if you loud and spiritive than you can be very helpful when it comes to the cheer part of the routine. And if you are exllecent in tumbling than the tumbling is for you.
Unlike other sports like baseball you wont just stand in one position you will move around. No matter what gender you are, you can be a cheerleader. It is fun and you get a work out most of the time.And you do alot of things.
take it from me, I have done cheerleading for 5 years and i never get bored. Unlike so sports people do!
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Huge Explosion
Moments earlier…
After a thunderstorm passed, my cousin and I were putting his speedboat back in the water. My dad was backing the truck and boat into the water. My cousin and I were on the boat. “OK that’s good,” my cousin told my dad. He then started up the boat. Seconds later, something near the engine exploded. The boat rocked back and forth. Black rubber was everywhere. It was like confetti coming down all around us. My cousin then jumped off the boat to safety. He instructed me to do the same. I went over to the side of the boat and jumped. I braced myself for impact as I hit the water. Cold water washed over me. When I surfaced I took a deep breath. That was a big mistake. Smoke immediately filled my lungs. I choked on the thick black smoke, heard sirens in the distance coming closer, and felt very weak. Since we weren’t far from shore, I swam over without too much problem.
When I felt solid ground under my feet I turned and looked back at the boat. The back near the engine was on fire. The firemen quickly rushed over to the boat and put out the fire. Even though it was over, my legs were still shaking. Fortunately no one got hurt.This was a day I would never forget.
The Life I Live
My name is Jenny Stingly. I am 16 years old and I live with my grandparents in New York City. You may be wondering why people stare at me like this. It is because I am poor; I have very little, mostly just the clothes on my back and one or two possessions. I eat most of my meals at the homeless shelter with my grandparents and sometimes I go to the back of restaurants searching for food they have thrown away. When I pass people on the streets they sometimes hold their nose or hold their breath. The people that feel badly for me, always say, "aw" or frown but the ones that don't care, just point and laugh.
I wish I knew how it felt being on the other side; being rich, not having to hunt down food, being able to support a family. Everyday I worry about my future. I wonder if it will get better.
School is one of the only things that bring me happiness. I love learning and I appreciate the warmth of the rooms when it's so cold outside. It also helps me to get my mind off of things when times are bad. I feel like I am reliving every day over and over again because nothing is changing, but this is the life I live.
Storm Runner -Sammy S.
I trudged up the stairs taking sharp breaths, looking behind me. My throat was numb and burning like when you play in the winter and a mountain of snow builds up in the back of your boot. I held on to the railing all the way up until I could see the tops of people head. They were all balancing on the heels of there feet waiting eagerly and anxiously to ride the brand new roller coaster at Hershey Park. We were waiting for minutes that didn’t want to go by any slower. The minutes passes like a pulse of a heart, ticking, feeling like skipping a beat. I could feel the sweat drip slowly down my face like condensation off a water bottle adapting to the new warm muggy air of the summer. The air stood still and the ceiling 2fans weren’t doing anyone any good. The black recently spray painted gates were giving off a sharp tangy smell. Big enough to give you a headache. The line was moving slowly, centimeter by centimeter, we finally reached those gates of glory. I held on to the gates making sure my mind wouldn’t play a trick and make me leave. I concentrated on the turns and the spiral of the coaster. Before this the only things I can see were the expressions of the brave hearted getting on full of fear and getting off as heroes to others. The buzzer went off and the gates swung open with a creak. This was it.
I stepped over the gap between the tracks and the gate. Climbing over the over edge of the brilliant read and elegant white, while I sat in the new leather smelling seats. It reminded me of sitting in the brand new car, picturing down the road in. I took a deep breath in, my heart drowning out my sense of hearing. The strong mumble came of the intercom, “please pull down on your harness, keep your feet and arms in at all times and have a great time on the Stormrunner.” I can hear the two worked pulling down on the harnesses, I froze with fear. They pulled down, locking me in. I was ready. Here we go.
We lurched about four feet, when we stopped. At first I thought there was something wrong. I sighed of relief thinking I wouldn’t have to go any further. Then all of sudden speakers behind me shot out a crack of thunder and a zap of lightening. All in about a millisecond we shot forward, forcing everyone’s hair back and screaming shooting behind. Then we flew up the hill. Curving into a spiral, over the lakes and rocks, twisting back into a semi-circle. I was overwhelmed with excitement, laughing, and taking in as much as possible. I could barely see in front of me. I could feel the sun beaming down somehow telling me it was the best day I could imagine. I felt like I was flying, we were going so fast. I pictured myself, with my cheeks flying behind me. Then with the last quick turn the ride was over, just like that.
When we pulled back in that loud voice came back. “Thank you riding Stormrunner, how was your ride?” as if they expected us to answer after that whirlwind of laughter and excitement. I jumped out proud of myself for even making it up those first stairs. With my legs all shaky I tremble toward my family, explaining every detail of the ride. All in all, I will never forget anything about that day.
Don't Forget
times! I can’t share my speech with the whole school if I forgot what to say! My heart
was beating a mile a minute, thud, thud, thud,. Looking at the clock, I began to panic, six
minutes till “Showtime.” My mind was a blind horse race. “Let’s see, I know the speech
was about school, but how did it start?” I thought. “maybe I should just make something
up! No, that won’t work. I need to remember.” Thinking intently I finally accepted that I
was as clueless and confused as a patient with amnesia. Then I heard the principal call me
onto stage followed by a rowdy round of applause from my restless classmates. “Well,
here goes nothing. “ I thought as my feet carried me onto the stage where the microphone
stood laughing at me.
The Speed of Skiing
Just Write
The Best Day of My Life
Catching a Ferry
I popped out of my cocoon of pillows. I Plowed my feet into the back of my sisters car cushion, slumped back into a position I could get out of quickly, and packed up my ipod. Finally our car came to a complete stop. We hustle to get everything that we would need to take across to Martha’s Vineyard including our bikes.
It’s about ten minutes later when we get to the bus stop that takes us to the ferry terminal. We hustled are bikes over to the bus that’s about to leave when the staff informs us that this bus doesn’t take bikes. To our luck my brother and I had previously noticed a bike trail that takes you to the ferry terminal and decided we would definitely ride our bikes on trail next year rather than taking the bus. We were already going to push the clock if we were able to take the bus that was about to leave. So we had decided ourselves that we would bike the bike trail to get to the ferry.
We were forced to quickly explain the solution to our mom who took quick-witted convincing on our part before she understood. Moments later the wind gushed in our faces as we took off down the unknown over 4 mile bike trail. Once again we had the best of chances, the trail was as perfectly smooth as school floors after long weekends when they buffed every square inch. Before what even felt like a minute of whizzing by leaves and branches we reached the first intersection we had to cross. We were across within twenty seconds because only a couple of cars came by a minute. Several more minutes lapsed before we exited the refreshing, cool, lush woods into the ocean plant life. The next intersection had fewer cars come by but they were going at highway speeds. Immediately after, the trail came about fifty feet from the surf, going parallel to it. The sun pounded heat on our backs while we breathed in fresh ocean air. The contradicting factors made it impossible to go any faster or slower. If we weren’t rushed on time I probably would have stopped and dived in the cold water even though I wasn’t in my bathing suit.
Every now and then I watched the reeds sway with every gust of wind making their own little waves so it seemed as if they were mimicking the ocean. We slowly peeled away from the ocean, crossed a little rickety wooden bridge, and hit a wall of shade yet hot air that was the woods. We rode in comfort for a good while before anything besides woods was visible.
We came into the bike trail parking lot with lines dead center for the bike trail. We kept riding until the parking lot turned into a road to get to the parking lot but the bike trail continued on it. At one point there was an opening where you could see straight out onto the water and we noticed a little peninsula and remembered that the ferry port has a peninsula to one side. After conversing we concluded we were within three quarters of a mile from the ferrry terminal. Moments later we went under a bridge, that blended in with the trees perfectly, leading us magically to the ferry terminal parking lot.
Once our bearings were back we were able to find the ferry terminal so we could buy our tickets for the soonest leaving ferry over to Martha’s Vineyard. There was a freight boat docked that would soon either depart or unload the trucks and cars. As soon as I could formulate the words I commanded my brother to check the time. I was wondering if this was the ferry we desperately wanted to take and if so, was it coming or going.
“It’s eleven ten!” We exchanged looks of frustration. We both knew right then and there it would be about two hours before we got onto Martha’s Vineyard rather than about half an hour. Yet we kept on our path towards the terminal to get our tickets now rather than later in case they ran out. As we neared the terminal, there were people all sweaty from the heat and I noticed that it also seemed to consume me without any wind in my face, we came to a stop and parked our bikes. My brother lagged behind me as we entered the terminal when I halted in my tracks.
My sister, my other sister and Mother were all in the terminal. They all should be on the boat. I started towards them at a quick pace.
“Why are you still here?” I asked.
“We just got here,” my sister answered as she was still noticing we were both here. They all told us just to go get on the ferry before it leaves and that they would explain the story later. So my other sister and brother took the bikes on to the ferry and I just walked on with my sister and mother.
Moments after we got on the ferry the horn blew and then departed. We wove our way through the trucks and cars to get to the front where we found my dad, who drove the car that we take onto the ferry over to Martha’s Vineyard. Once we found a good empty place to stand we started sharing our stories and piecing them together. I ended up with this. My mother and my sister, who rode in the same car as me, took the bus to get to the ferry port. Ironically the bus they ended up taking was in fact a bike bus and the staff had been wrong. My dad and sister, who rode in the other car, got to the ferry on time. Unfortunately that sister had a child’s ticket which only I could use to board so she ended up waiting for the rest of us at the terminal. My dad drove onto the ferry without her. My brother and I got to the terminal just about a minute after my mother and sister got there, so they were able to buy the remaining tickets. Most importantly the boat departed ten minutes later than scheduled! That’s how our crazy ferry rides some how come together and workout fine in the end.