Never Grow Up

Everything I ever had as a kid was gone. Gone forever. It would never be the same as it was. I wish I'd never grown up. I wish I could go back to the simple life, the life with a family that loves me. The life with people I could turn to. The life I loved. But no, it's different now. I grew up. I grew up too fast.It seemed like just yesterday I was celebrating my brother's seventh birthday. It seemed like yesterday I was only 13. But that's changed. My life has changed. I'm older now. Old enough to make my own decisions.To be free and independent. Do I like it this way? No, not at all. I want to go back to when I could hold my mother's hand when I crossed the road.To when I could listen to her tell me stories. But it's not like that anymore.I regret growing up.I regret wishing I could grow up.I don't like this life. I don't like it at all. It's gone.My life's gone. In the blink of an eye, it was gone.No more crying until someone asked, "What's wrong?". No more having to fix my mistakes. That's over. That's the past. Today is today. The present. Where I'm older, where I grew up. Where everything I used to have is gone, because I grew up. Did I want to grow up? No. Did I want to stay young forever? Yes. But life cant always be that way.Time flies,without you even recognizing it. Without you even noticing it. "I wish I'd never grown up" Were the words that flooded my mind everyday of my life. I never thought I would grow up so fast. I never thought it would happen. But it did. It actually did, and I regret it. I regret it a lot.