Remember Me With Joy and Happiness

I just stood there waiting. Waiting for a sign that everything was going to alright. Waiting for everything, waiting for anything. I tried to hold my tears back at wait I had just heard minutes before. The worst news anyone can think of. The news that you dread to hear. The words make you want to curl up in a ball and cry, the words that make the world seem like it is spinning right before your eyes, the words that you don't ever want to believe. "LET ME SEE HIM!" I screamed.
"No, you can't, its too late. " My mom said as she tried to hug me. I pushed her arms away
"NO NO NO NO NO! ITS NOT TOO LATE! HE WILL BE BACK! HE WILL!" I screamed back at her as I was bawling.
"Just calm down." My mom said in a soothing voice. "We are all still in shock from the horrid event." Mom began to shred tears again as they began to crawl down her cheeks. I stormed out of the room furious at myself.
"WHY HIM! WHAT COULD I HAVE DONE TO CHANGE WHAT HAPPENED! WHY HIM! WHY DID YOU HAVE TO TAKE HIM AWAY FROM ME! WHY HIM!" I yelled to the heavens
"Its okay, just calm down. I'm here with you, right here right now, but not for much longer." A soft voice said.
"Who said tha...." I said until I turned around and saw who it was. It was him. He was standing there right in front of me. "But, but your ... and how?" My voice stuttered.
"Well this is just my spirit, but hey I'm here, but not forever. And by the way, you couldn't have done anything to safe me. If you were there he would have just killed you too." He said. I started to cry as hard as I could making my face look like the Pacific Ocean.
"Don't remember with pain and sorrow. Remember me with joy and happiness. Don't think about the event that killed me, think of the events that we shared smiles together." He said an then he disappeared. He was gone, gone forever. He, who was my brother, was gone forever, but will never leave my heart.